Ending of my favorite month "October" (31 Oct 2012)

  

October is my favorite month of the year.
(BIRTHDAY , GOING BACK HOME AND HALLOWEEN)

October is a month that I eagerly look forward to and is going to end 

The month that gives me the feeling of peace and serenity. I love you October...

Coming back to work after long weekends. This is so cruel when I have to get back on track and to face the reality. But come to think of it, my holidays was fun and worthwhile..   
But what sad was, I sacrificed my SHINee’s and SMTOWN concert tickets in exchanging the bus tickets for this whole month to go back to KL.
*Ya really sad to lost this chance but I’m willing to :)*
My October starts with every morning waking up planning on what to pray and what chapter to read in the bible in order to have a blessing day for myself, family and friends. It is a holy month for me.
Something “happened”  giving me the urge to go on a meat fasting for 15 days and abstain from meat in order to have spiritual cleansing, purity of thought and avoiding temptations of flesh in my mind hoping to pray spiritually. It is a month for me to strengthen my relationship with God and have faith in everything I do and also an opportunity for me to seek for forgiveness from God.  The hardest part of all is to abstain from hateful thought, unkind words and cruel feelings towards other people. 

Hannah please be kind!

Although there are ups and downs this month but no matter what’s what, a positive attitude, I choose to make the best out of it, with inner peace, grace and serenity.

Lets hope that October good to all of us and give us a memorable moments. 

Put down my pride (30 Oct 2012)

I'm not perfect but I'm attempting to be perfect.

The way of approaching perfection is exhausted.

As much as I tried, I often have questions in my head like " what will people think? " or "why isn't good enough?"

When myself is clear that no such thing as perfection in this world no matter how hard I tired. ..I never give up trying.

I just want to avoid the pain, blame, judgement, shame and lastly to make myself feel the worthy of love.

I need courage from God to put me on the line.

I want to live and love with my whole heart.Is it difficult?

No, just always tell myself be humble and humble...

On my Birthday (29 Oct 2012)

** Happy and be thankful for what I have now**

It is my birthday today. Being the overly emotional person that I am, my birthdays are often dried up. I don't believe I've ever remarked my birthday here on this blog all this while, but this year I'm trying something a little different.

Last year I've hundreds of wishes on Facebook and elsewhere, and really appreciates that a lot.

Very old times I often think celebration is a must. But somehow my perception have changed. As I look back the past years, I think paying attention and spending time with family are way more meaningful.

Really happy to have my family and cousins around. They sang me birthday song and I felt really touching and funny and shy too. Time flies, but the collection of memories will always remain in my heart.

Message to all my lovely family and friends: 

I'm all about gratitude and appreciate to all of you.

I want you all to know how grateful it is I am now to have you all in my life and how much you all mean to me.

Thank you for the hugs, jokes, smile and laughter you have brought to my life. Thank you for being there and bring so much joy in my life. Really really thankful for that *sincerely*.

A simple blog is not enough for me to express how much I felt and how thankful I am to everyone here in my life. God really loves me so much because he sent all the angels surrounding me.

***This year wished, hoping my friend's (Carmen) father will recover from his sickness***

My Dream Holiday (2012)

***Actually my dream holiday is very simply

I've often dream of spending the Christmas holidays in another country and experiencing the different cultures and traditions...

 I wish to bring my whole family back to New York again..!!

***Why would I say back to New York again?

Because when I was 2 years old, my parents left Malaysia and they had a very long journey in New York, they stayed there for 10 years.

I was in Malaysia staying with my grandparents and aunt, because of that I never had a chance to celebrate Christmas with them in the past 10 years. 

Although I'd been to New York before but just three months...

 I still remember during the year 1995 when I was 8 years old the World Trade Center were still around.

 I wish I could wander the street and check out the markets

 And to look at all the gorgeous lighting 

snow will definitely be a bonus for me.

 I don’t know if you remember this guy. He is an actor from the movie called Home Alone. His name is Kevin, after I watched this movie; I wish I could be like him in the movie, going door to door singing Christmas songs

  I think is very hard to do this in Asia because we have a different culture.  If you knock on other people house door. They will think you're crazy or you want to rob them!

And of course, I would love to stop by at some coffee shops

 

 and enjoy some coffees and dessert.

 Lastly, I would love to wear the Christmas costume with these thousands of Santa's and go around the place and walking in different directions in the city...

 “I haven't really been in super cold weather, but it's definitely fun to dream about and if I had a chance to go there during the holidays, I'd love it!”

Funniest dream ever~~~!!!!! (11 Sept 2012)

Last night I had a dream. For the most part, it wasn't really a dream to me, this dream was so real. It started with I happily holding my SHINee’s concert ticket on hands. I heard sounds like somebody talking in the distance and suddenly “this guy” stands in front of me. I couldn’t remember his face, I seem to know him well. Hohoho "Maybe is future bf"...!!!

He told me that he is working in Korea now and he told me that he could possibly get me another ticket which I can sit nearer to the stage so that I able to see Taemin closely. So at that moment I was so amazed, "jumping jumping" yes or no without hesitation, I totally believed in him. My mind began to rush over and thinking some hilarious thoughts. So on the next day, I sold my ticket to someone else from overseas. Out of sudden “this guy” told me that he is not going to Korea anymore.
I was super shocked and I stared into his eyes directly. 

My nightmare begins here~

I was so angry and going to burst soon while my real body were sweating and crying CRYING and Crying… Hehehe..”Again!”
~tut tut tut~ I forgot some part in the dreams actually…!
~ Long story~
It wasn’t easy but, it was worth the effort of getting back my ticket. So that I woke up with a blissful dream. XD